I am SO ready for college. I got accepted to UNC-Charlotte, my second choice school. I find out if I got into Appalachian this month sometime. Honestly, I'm scared I'm not going to get in, just because I technically failed 4 out of my 5 classes last semester. I didn't get bad grades, I just missed more than 3 days that semester and I had to appeal them with notes and shit, but apparently they didn't get appealed, which is total bullshit. I guess I'll just talk to the my guidance counsellor or something when we go back. There's been so much snowww. Now it's just ice. We haven't been to school all this week and we have Wednesday off, which is cutting into our spring break. But fuck that- I'm not going to school on spring break. I've got plans, motherfucker.

AH! I got a 15in MacBook Pro, and I love it. Seriously, I feel like I'm holding god's dick when I'm on this thing. It's amazing. I feel proud of myself because I saved up for it and bought it myself. One less thing my dad has to pay for when I go to college.

Fuck school though. I'm tired of it. It's just the same damn thing over and over. And I'm fucking STRESSED out with the IB program and shit. I mean, there's seriously no way I will ever get my diploma for completing the program. I'm supposed to have a 4000 word essay typed up in two days and I only have 925. And now I'm out of ideas. So I'm fucked there. And I have to do CAS (Creativity, Action, and Service) hours- 150 total. I maybe have 30 so far, and they're all due in about a month. I really, really can't do it. And if I don't finish them, I'm going to have to pay for all the IB exams in March which comes to about $700. I mean I have the money but it still fucking sucks major dick. It's almost not fair. I really shouldn't have done this program. It's BS. All BS.

But whatever. I'm single. Joy. Ugh, fuck boys. I feel like I've wasted the last three and half years of my life. It's shit. But what pisses me off the most is if I talk to other guys, Nolan flips his shit. Like, seriously? What the fuck man. As of January 10th, you lost the right to do that.

I dunno, my life is going 50-50 right now, if that makes sense. I'm ready for bigger things, but I'm grounded at the moment.